I'm 20 years old. I have an eating disorder. I was officially diagnosed this past January. Ever since then, I've been thrown into weekly nutritionist, therapist and doctor appointments. Six months later, I've decided that I need a place to let out all my thoughts (whether they are extremely eating-disordered or not) anonomously so that I will not be judged. So I've chosen to blog. I don't know if anyone else will ever read this, but I'd love to find people who are in similar situations as me or who could even shed some new insight on the matter.
So I guess I should start with some numbers. I'm 5'4. My heighest weight was somewhere between 130-135 (at 18 years old), my lowest was 97 (at 20 years old) and my current weight is around 114.
This all started with the books "Skinny Bitch" and "This is Why You're Fat and How To Get Thin Forever." I'm not going to say that I immediately developed my eating disorder after reading those. It definitely progressed over time. I started giving up more and more foods and coming up with more and more rules for myself (most of which I still follow). After months of cutting out more and more foods from my diet, I am now finally vegan. Although I do eat fish, so I guess I'm not a true vegan. (But I'd like to see anyone eat the diet that I eat.) I also have only had dessert once since my birthday last fall and I plan to try to make it to my next birthday without eating another one.
I could go on and on with my rules but I'll save that for another post.
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